Sunday night...

Isn't waiting for this GRE test to come up like watching paint dry? It is taking FOREVER to get here - yet I don't feel like I'm ready.

I should take that back... I'm as ready as I'll ever be - I just hope it is enough to get me over the top.

I have thought about the gravity of NOT getting the 1000 for a score and how I'll feel when I tell everyone who has been on this journey with me.

You know what? I hold my head high!

Here's how I feel about this whole thing in a nutshell...

I intend to go for the interview regardless of the score. I feel like this is a one time shot for me and the GRE score is NOT an example of how good of a person, nurse or my intelligence.

I plan on walking into the interview and telling them (on Friday) that I'm a great candidate for the program because even though my children are young - they are all easily contained.

I don't have teenagers discovering boys (or girls), I don't have kids dealing with proms and colleges. I don't have kids ready to drive or go out with their friends.

I DO have a great support system of family, neighbors and friends who are all willing to back me up.

I'm lucky to have 4 healthy, robust, and just awesome kids. Living across the street from a child with cancer, I know that me and my family have it good.

If the most I have to REALLY worry about is 'what's for dinner', then I've had a wonderful day, right?

I say that this program doesn't start until August and that they could give us another shot to pass the score... that would be up to them, but they will never know unless they meet me.

I honestly feel like the test score doesn't matter... but it sure would be nice to have it over and mission accomplished.

You can bet on me posting the score here on Tuesday! Please think of me (in prayer) and send off good vibes on Tuesday morning at 9am!!