So much to tell...

Wow! Can't believe I have been this bad about updating this thing, but so much has been going on! Where should I begin?

Well... to start I got into the anesthesia school!! I actually heard word that I was accepted last Thursday. The sent out an email but they also phoned me on my cellphone. Hearing the news was a double edged sword - Very excited to be picked to be a part of the class, yet worried about how to pay for it.

I am about to enter the world of student loans. I have never needed to borrow $$$ for school and when I'm done, I could have more than $60,000 owed. Ouch!

I've been panicking about the idea of going into further debt. In a time when many, many are losing their jobs, I'm planning on quitting mine and not taking a salary for two years. The idea of this school was much more exciting before I actually got in. Now, I'm learning about the fire you need to walk across to get $$$ to go back to school.

The hardest part is knowing that Bryan and I HAVE to refinance our home this year. We currently have an adjustable rate and it will hit the five year mark this year. We had our mortgage guy look at the houses prices in our area and the news is not good. Looks like the value of our home will be about $25,000 less than we owe on it. This is NOT good news.

Bryan is not all that worried about it. He refuses to worry about things we can't change. I'm trying to think like him, but I'm worried that - come August - I won't have a job! So, how am I going to qualify for this house??? We NEED to get this whole thing sorted out - soon.

Funny, how the idea of going back to school was very exciting until it came true - now I'm not so sure.

I'm not backing out, just scared about what lies ahead.